Chapter 11: Exes in China Make Bad Friends

“Do you realize how you hurt Frank?” Xiao Yu, one of my coworkers and friends from the Internet company, confronted me one afternoon, nearly a week after my birthday party. He didn’t even have to point a finger at me — I could feel the judgment in his large, almond eyes, framed by a mane of short hair parted severely down the middle. “You flaunted your relationship in front of Frank, who sat right next to you. You even let him photograph you and John together.”

As I listened to Xiao Yu chastize me, I realized one thing: I’d never thought about Frank that evening.

I hadn’t even thought when I received a short message from Frank the day after my birthday. “Was that guy your boyfriend?” he asked, Chinese.

“Yes, he is my boyfriend.” I typed the characters out thoughtlessly. Frank asked me a question, and so he deserves an answer, I thought. But it wasn’t an altruistic act. And neither was the way Frank stonewalled me and pushed me aside as he left the elevator, I recalled.

But, when I sent that reply, I didn’t realize the truth — that I was giving away something Frank never asked me. Frank accidentally sent that text message to me.

“He was probably pursuing another young lady,” Xiao Yu surmised. If Frank was after another girl, then why should I care if he knows about John? I thought. I’ve moved on, and so has Frank. How could I possibly have the power to hurt him anymore?

Xiao Yu thought I did. “You should speak with Frank sometime.”

But how to speak with Frank? Our friendship had stagnated in the wake of birthday, and careless text message. He never looked at me, or talked to me, or even acknowledged I was sitting beside him. To Frank, I could have not been there at all.

And, in truth, maybe I wasn’t — because I was with John now.

I don’t know why Xiao Yu pushed me so hard to make things better. How could I? Exes just don’t make good friends in China.

Did you discover the difficulty of remaining friends with your ex-Chinese boyfriend or ex-Chinese girlfriend?

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Memoirs of a Yangxifu in China is the story of love, cultural understanding and eventual marriage between one American woman from the city and one Chinese man from the countryside. To read the full series to date, visit the Memoirs of a Yangxifu archives.

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3 thoughts on “Chapter 11: Exes in China Make Bad Friends

  • March 25, 2010 at 12:24 pm
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    From experience, I think maybe Frank did love you. He couldn’t be with you, because of family and his traditional thinking, but I now seeing you with another guy might have made him realize he did love you…who knows. lol

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    • March 26, 2010 at 12:15 am
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      Dear Rhiannon, thanks so much for the comment — and your perspective. You know, I have to believe you’re right on this. He did love me, but his family wouldn’t have accepted me, so he distanced himself from me. And it had to hurt seeing me with John.

      Actually, as a side note, I haven’t seen him in any of the times that I’ve been back to Hangzhou. He is always helpful — but somehow, something always keeps him from meeting with me in person. So I can’t help but be reminded that it is just so hard to be friends with your exes in China.

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  • June 26, 2010 at 5:46 pm
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    Not just in China. Los Angeles, London no better.

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